05 Paranoia

Late at night, when you were already safe and sound, sleeping, suddenly there's a force, a massive one, pulling you off, out to reality. By then you realize that it was nothing but a mere cracking sound coming from the stair. As you about to went deep analyzing the sound, your brain works a bit faster, transmitting a call to your heart, alarming an emergency, making your heart pounding as if you were running off miles away barely with your feet. Your mouth seems muttering something but even your very ears hardly to picked it up. Your voice were vanished. Only thin air were pushed out from your mouth as your tongue were freeze frostly. A thought were created, few images were flashed, violence only what you see through it.

"The f*ck..?" out of nowhere, your sense is coming back. For a quite moment, you were stuck, not functioning the way you used to be. "Is this a break-in attempt...?" you ask yourself a question that might gonna send you into paranoia.

Were you ever experienced such thing? I was, recently. Embracing paranoia state wasn't fun at all. For those of you that ever experienced such thing, surely knew how was the feeling. You were f*cked up... by your very own brain.

Luckily, I wasn't hallucinating though I was freaked a bit by those shadow that appears on my window's curtain. It was coming from trees outside my room, mimicking a person or two moving in the dark. Damn it, man. Sh*t feels so real. Soooo reallll~

Later on, few hours after that, I realize that I was asleep holding a scissor. I was fortunate enough my mom not happened to see me like that. Fewh~

04 We Love Methsematics

Did my english gone off the rail again?

Say what you wanna say like I care much about it yet I don't really mind cause right now a statement has been made. Didn't you read the title above? wait wait, what? you're telling me that I'm wrong? heyy~ *laugh* (cynical laugh are recommended) I care what of your criticism? you ain't gonna tell me right or wrong. Didn't asked for your opinion though.

So, what about you? do you enjoy meth too? come on, meth are fun. Counting stars, ever done that? it's classic and... fun. Of course, for some things, it is uncountable noun though. For example like a smoke. You smoke? alright, now you feel me. You can count of how many times you've blow your smoke but you can never count how many smokes are there. It could be once, twice or might even three times but the amount of smoke are variable, right? whatt?? seven times? like 7X 7X? whoa~ you're nasty dude!!

Opps!! sorry though~ kinda dragged away. I've lost my talking bout smoke when what I really want to share with you are how interesting methametics could be. Calculating, counting stuff, it's great mann. Don't you like it?

Oh well, know what? gotta go for now. Got something to do / be done (if you get me). Till then, bye for now. Ciao! Now I realize I've mispelled "mathematic" as "methematic" which makes me feel like a loser poser tweaker. :P

Psst: define SUBLIMINAL. No puns intended. ;D

03 Uncredited...

Been there, in that situation where all of your efforts, energy and every sacrifice gone wasted and meaningless. In the end, you realized you not even matter to what ever that matter most to you. You just another 'tool' for them to achieve their target. A stepping stone you might say.

Then? what's next?

...feeling hopeless.

02 Step back, look at the bigger pic

Seriously, this is a no entry, this is an order. Simple. Step a bit backward, see things in bigger picture. You might realize that it's worth more and seeing truth better. It's just the matter of perspective. Don't you agree?

One thing that you need to know is that "everybody lies...". For some, they even can pull bigger tricks in front of your eyes. By big I mean really-really big such as mass media. Also the social media. They have this kind of skill to twist even the hard and solid truth. Seriously you, we, us gotta be extra cautious and careful in analyzing on such news / things that happen. For the piece(s) already been set, and move(s) already been made. Just waitin for us to fell into their trap(s).

Put some thought about it. Anyway, happy iftar everybody. It's almost time.

"History is written by the victors..." - Winston S. Churchill

01 First Post

As my first post, I'll make this one a quick one. Welcome to my blog. For the time being, seriously there is not much to say. Just so you know, this one more like a personal blog plus right now I don't have any niche (specific) regarding of my blog.

Some of you might know and some of you might not know that I do have another blog which I wrote in B. Melayu a.k.a Malays cause I'm from Malaysia (durh!) and yes I'm Malaysian from the Borneo part of it. Don't ask me about MH17 for all I know that the plane already crashed, there are highly chances no one survive but for whatever it is, we (us) believe that there must be a reason for it. So lets pray for MH17, the victim's family, the passengers, those crews and such. This is a terrible moment for us (generally), and for those who involved in this (specifically). We are at lost now. Seems like just months after MH370 tragedy happens and just like that, another flight met it's fate. Just by imagining how Malaysia Airlines dealing with this, even me could feel that this is really really hard. Pray, it's our last weapon.. that what my father used to tell me. So guys, if there is even one bit, tiny of humanity in you, lets pray for this MH17 and also not to forget our brothers and sisters at Gaza right now (yes, we are muslims but we are not terrorist). Also Syria, Egypt, Iraq and more that facing of such issue. Pray for them too for we couldn't afford more than that to help them. If it happens to be you (yes you, the one who read this) aren't muslim, you should know though that Israel-Palestine issue are not religions issue anymore. It's about humanity and those zionis already gone wayyy too much interms of abiding the moral code. There might be no humanity left inside them (so sad!) but I believe there is still inside you. Am I right? so lets us all pray together in your own way and don't forget about them in each of your pray. Sobs! :'/

Sorry! I might get carried away. Supposely I wanna make this one as short as it be. Anyway, I'll be back making another post so stay tuned to this blog. Hope to "see" you again, "listening" to me babbling right here. Alright? bye now!